A little more about my ultrasound, plus some of my standard gushing, over at Faith and Family Live tonight.
I feel like my nausea and exhaustion are the only things keeping me real these days. Otherwise I would be nothing but sunshine and rainbows overflowing, and it would be a little... much.
Still, I can't help but recognize that, currently, a list of my blessings would be as long as my arm. Longer, even - it'd probably go from my shoulder to my hemline.
1. Well, Camilla. Duh. Here she is helping Daddy water the garden:
2. The embryonic (almost fetal!) little one, of course.
3. Camilla's new sleeping habits! To prove I'm not superstitious (even though I feel I should be whispering this) I'll share: she often sleeps from 10pm to 6am straight through! Then nurses and goes back to sleep for several more hours! Can you tell by all the exclamation points how excited I am that this has finally happened?!?
4. Getting to rediscover the world, and to discover for the first time what's going on inside that little head of our daughter's, because she is getting so incredibly verbal. Bryan and I have decided that if we could just get Billa to sleep reliably (the eight-hour stretch is not completely consistent), then life with her would be pretty much perfect. She can tell us what she wants so she's rarely frustrated, and she's just so funny and interesting. Of course we, being her parents, are biased in that regard, but still. What could be more fascinating than watching a toddler learn to communicate and understand the world around her? It's a huge privilege.
5. Bryan and I will celebrate six years of marriage on August 17th, and it's as good as it's ever been. Better, even. And this fall will be the tenth anniversary of our first date, which means we've had a good long time together. If the future decades of our life together bring as much joy as these first years have brought, we'll be pretty blessed.
6. We've got my sister and her family nearby - Daniel and Camilla are so attached they're like twins - and both sets of parents within easy driving distance. It makes me very happy that our kids will get to grow up knowing their extended families pretty well.
7. I often take this particular blessing for granted, but Bryan has a good, well-paying job, in a field with a lot of job security. He likes going to work every day, and his commute is only about fifteen minutes. In that area, we've got it about as good as it gets.
8. We have a house that's big enough to hold at least a couple kids (I figure we won't get really crowded until we've got four, if that happens), in a neighborhood we like, in a great location, so we don't have to move any time in the foreseeable future. I hate moving, so the thought of staying put makes me happy.
9. We love our parish. And I just heard from another mom that they do hands-on Montessori-style catechism - and our parish is very orthodox, so we can trust it to be good - and Camilla can start at age three. Fall 2009, here we come!
10. We're all healthy as horses.
Oh, I could just go on and on, but after a while it'll get to be too much, huh? In the cons category I can put:
-1. I often feel like I might throw up.
But after all the good things I listed above, it doesn't seem like that big a deal, does it? Sometimes I look around and wonder how I got EVERYTHING, why God has blessed us so much when there are so many with so little. Mostly, though, I just try to appreciate it, because life really is incredibly good.