I was hoping to stay involved in the discussion that I invited when I posted yesterday. But when I got up this morning, I found that I do not have the emotional energy.
Yesterday I was running on adrenaline, and a little bit of denial. I started my period yesterday morning, so I needed something to distract me from it. The debate served that purpose. At any other time I would have been able to stay more detached, but yesterday I put my whole self into my arguments, and I ignored my feelings about the start of another cycle. I normally work through them in writing, but this month I guess I thought I could avoid it by throwing myself wholeheartedly into something else.
Well, I was wrong. This morning, it’s as if I am up against an emotional brick wall. So I’m giving myself time off today. I’m skipping class this afternoon, getting into bed with a book and a cup of tea, and letting myself cry until I feel whole again.
The truth is, the debate about abortion doesn’t have to be concluded by me, today. It will go on for a long time to come. It’s going on right now in the comments section of yesterday’s post. I want it to keep going. I’m happy with how civil everyone is being toward one another. I’ll keep monitoring, and I’ll delete any posts that are personal attacks, but other than that, I hope the talking and the thinking keeps happening. Pax.